I haven’t discussed a lot about my personal life for a while. Like many of you, 2020 was far from easy for me. To top off all that pandemic stuff, I decided to get divorced. About ten years full of regret and mistakes, but my mind was made up. The main reason was she was not a good partner in any way shape or form.
I’ll give you some context on why. This photo is me when I was 17. I had suffered from countless years of bullying. School was a bad time in middle school especially and one of my brothers used to hit me constantly. What hurt more were the insults he’d throw with those punches. I honestly believed through countless years of abuse that I was ugly and stupid. And that nobody would ever want me. You have no idea how horrible I thought of myself at this time. I also have some dietary problems that made me feel like a freak and that only cemented that kind of self hatred.
So I put up with someone who wasn’t a right fit for me. I tried to make the best of it, but I was very unhappy especially as time would pass. I don’t even like thinking about my personal life for those years in retrospect. The photo above was me as a senior in high school. A very miserable time in my life.
Even though the scars of my trauma remain within me, I knew my worth somewhat. I’ve always considered myself a super sweet person with a wonderful heart. I knew it’d take some time to find the right woman, but it would happen.
Then before 2020 was over, I had the pleasure of going out with this gorgeous hottie. This is actually the photo she took before our first date. We both were going through a divorce, and like myself, she had an ex spouse that wasn’t worthy.
I had been so blown away by how much I liked her from the beginning. She was drop dead gorgeous, my body type, she has such a sweet heart, our personalities match very well, and the list goes on. I think both us coming out of a horrible and a toxic marriage made us appreciate each other even more so. In high school I had zero confidence, in 2020 mild confidence, and now she has made me feel so loved. For the first time since childhood, I was able to love myself.
I made a promise to myself that I would always treat her as best as I possibly could. I would open doors, get her flowers, and always tell her how much I love her. I would always be the absolute opposite of her deadbeat ex-husband. A lot of people she knows are quite envious of how well I treat her. I do realize that a lot of men are complete trash when it comes to treating women, and I would never be that guy.
While it hasn’t nominally been a lot of time, I asked her to marry me back in July. And of course, she accepted. We wanted to get married before the end of the year.
And we got married yesterday. I’m officially a step-dad. And I do vow to treat Princess L like she was my own child. But if you think the wonderful news stops there….
She’s pregnant with my baby. Our little bundle of joy will be arriving in June.